Grandma

My moms' mother died when I was about a year old, and that's one of the saddest things I've ever gone through. I didn't realize it until now, because I was lucky enough to be blessed with another grandmother...but that's just the thing I have to call her grandmother, I can't call her grandma or granny, or mama, or anything she told my parents that she prefer I called her grandmother nelson. So, rightfully so I really wish my moms' mother was still alive, because I know her spirit is just like my mom's and if people tell me I'm the spitting image of my mother then I know I'd be just like my grandma. I'm 19 and I miss her more than ever, I think it's because I'm going through things that I don't wanna go to my mom with but I wish my grandma was here to help me with it. I can't talk to my grandmother because she will judge me like she's done my whole life. So I miss my grandma, like she's the one I would confide in and spend all my time with. I don't know her too well but all I imagine is her being like my mother times 10! And I wish I could just be in her arms again, cause my heart is so heavy with everything I'm going through; past but fresh heartache, new love, friendships fading, and feeling lose. My mother always describes her as the strongest sense of family, and I miss that feeling of having family, so I miss her. Basically there's a difference between a Grandmother and a Grandma and I miss my Grandma.


Sincerely,
AB